금요일, 10월 28, 2005
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Bored. I dunno what i should be doing right now. So bored to the extent that i really went to dl irc and step again into the world of lameness. Ok i admit i was an avid fan of it way back in jc. But that was like 3 yrs ago. Now i think its quite childish n bo liao. But when u are bored u dun have much choice do u.
As i said, beggars cant be choosers.
So here im again, talking to pple i hardly noe with no aims. Nah, i dun go irc to know prospective mates. I go there cos..cos what huh. Well, i dunno. Just to kill time ba. Cos i stare at my msn list and i realise i dun even talk to half of them online. N considering i only have 46 pple on my list..now u get the picture. One word : pathetic.
Guess i depend on some pple too much. Shldnt be doing that i guess. Cos its utterly wrong to do so. If they are not around, boredom just seeps into u. Period. But i can tell u that the feeling is just horrid. Ok i admit i dun have much affinity with pple, i dun communicate well but surely there are pple out there who like being with me ba.
*yawns*
Shld i try sleeping at 930 todae? Cos im super sian. N im bored to tears.
I suddenly rem my irc days back in jc. Kinda miss the pple i used to talk to there. But dunno why #njc seems kinda of 冷清 now. Even #sngs is as bad. I must be getting old. How i wish i could turn back time. Cos there are a couple of things i really regret. But time waits for noone. That much i know.
Do pple dunno how they feel?
Well, maybe they do if their neuron system is not working properly. Probably sedated. Thats y.
Just had my jap project todae. Its horrible thru n thru but i dun care much. Dunno why n when i stopped caring abt my test grades anymore. But ya i dun. Well to put it more accurately, of cos i will still feel a slight sense of loss and disappointment but that feeling disappears as quickly as it comes. I mean i just dun see the need to feel sad over something that i cant change. But yes, i still force myself alot when it comes to studies. Cos i just cant stand not getting the results i want. But my determination has been dwindling ever since i came to uni. Slightly below perfect grades in primary, secondary and even jc. But in uni, i actually let them dip. Think 12 yrs of education has taken its toll on me.
I shld be studying right now. Even though i always say grades are not everything, im still a major slave to it.
Sorry, boredom and the need to study always makes me in a bad mood.
倘若公主不开心的时候，王子会想尽办法让公主的脸上再次绽放笑容吗？
Hmm, jus now i was watching mars n it made me even more convinced that i hope somedae someone will lend me his jacket..lol. Think the feeling will be quite sweet ba. But singapore guys like dun really wear jackets, not to say nice ones. So i must wait long long.
또 울어버렸다.. @ 9:01 PM